Happy Holidays!

So I am starting out this blog post with some cupcakes that I made at work.  Just to kick off this holiday post.  Luckily these cupcakes you wont gain any weight with hehe =)

Ok so to update everyone.  Things are still the same with my husband and I.  But I really didn't think things would be different.  I feel sad inside but I try to be "happy" on the outside.

My mom gave me a surprise.  A few days before Christmas she told me she was going to be stopping by my work cause she had something to give me.  So I said ok.. well I was working on a few things for the pastry case and I happened to look up and my grandma was standing right there.  I was so shocked and confused cause my grandma lives in another state and I was no expecting her for Christmas lol.  But it was a awesome surprise.  She will be staying here until Jan 4th.

we had Christmas at my moms house.  The kids all opened their presents.  My husband and I decided this year that we would just buy for the kids and not get gifts for one another.  We were very tight on money anyways so it worked out good.  I got his a video game that he wanted a few days earlier but told him it was not a "Christmas present"  lol

I don't think he has been dressing or under dressing lately.  But then again he hid things from me for 20yrs so who really knows.  its just a feeling I have inside and usually I can tell lately when hes hiding something.  He did have his toes painted not long ago but then after a few days took off the polish.  I felt better inside when I knew it was off.

I'm still sad though I still wish that things were different. Things take time I guess.  I do hope we can work through things.  This man I married is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.  Which is why I am trying so dang hard all the time no matter how much it hurts me inside...